Back in the early, heady days of Blaugust I wrote a “FFXIV August To-Do List“. I tried to keep the list manageable, limiting it to six items that were not too taxing.
I failed to complete any of them.
In fact, my FFXIV subscription lapsed shortly after writing that post, and it took a few weeks before I renewed it. I like the game! I like the story and the characters. I like the mechanics, and the costume gear. (Seriously, I played GW2 for a bit recently and having to go and loot things feels almost insurmountably archaic now thanks to FFXIV.)
But being behind all the time, as I’ve written about earlier, starts to get to me. Also, while I’m in a lovely guild with lovely, helpful people, my usual gaming hours of choice are 9:30 – 11:30 p.m. when few people are online. My partner quit, preferring to focus his grinding time on a constant series of rifts in Diablo III. I play alone, slowly Stone II-ing things to death. Oh, the pathos.
As much as I love the story in FFXIV, and I like a grindy game, I just want to be raiding already. Raiding once or twice a week with my super awesome but quite casual FC would give me some of the camaraderie that I love in MMOs. It would give me the satisfaction of playing my job of choice well — White Mage is about healing groups, not DPSing quest enemies — and take me to new, unseen zones where there are new, unseen challenges.
As it is I know I have 30 – 40 hours of content at least still in front of me before I can even set foot inside a Heavensward raid, and by that time I’m sure I’ll need to run a billion things to gear up for the next encounter.
FFXIV is definitely the MMO most suited to my tastes right now, and I enjoy it quite a bit in theory, but I wish I could just skip ahead and be with the rest of my FC and play what I want to play. Perhaps this is just more of my evolution into a filthy casual, but I have never enjoyed leveling in any MMO ever beyond a handful of hours and having the end-game gated behind many many many hours of questing is sapping my motivation to play.